Maths Anxiety

Arghhh…. Screw it! I flung my pen unto the table, crashing myself onto the bed where I sink myself into the soft cuddle of inferiority, churning in me as exasperation slowly chewed me off bit by bit, until I started scrolling my phone as a diversion.

Instagram, twitter, then Youtube. Nothing interesting, I got up, drank a glass of water, rejuvenated, resumed with doing Maths.

Another half an hour flew past, I gave up, I could not solve that particular question. The next day, the following day, I did not do Maths at all. I was afraid of doing so. My greatest passion became my greatest fear.

It was not Maths that became my phobia, it was failure. I kept succumbing to failure, my brain did not want to try because it did not want to fail again and again, again and again, again and again.

I resumed this moribund passion of mine, relentless was I, pertinacity lost to failure once again. This cycle was repeating itself, becoming a habit of failing and not embracing it boldly.

Just do it. I told myself, sick and tired of the fear of failure which fled through the back doors of my heart because the beauty of Maths trumped failure. I am willing to fail as many times as possible in order to solve the problems in Maths. 

Have hope.

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Published by zeckrombryan

Hope. Joy. Feelings cloaked as words.

19 thoughts on “Maths Anxiety

  1. Great one! I like that. Often when we do not like something (e.g. a school subject), we rather do not like failing and not that certain something itself. Makes sense that we usually like what we are good at (and vice versa – we are good at what we like!)

    I’m curious, too, what kind of math do you do?

    1. Haha currently having tertiary studies as a Malaysian (STPM) so I am studying the basics, and during semester breaks, I would look into something more interesting, like some Euclid or Euler or Archimedes et cetera. Just covering most of the basics at the moment.

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