I became a devout christian, I believed in all of His words, His commands, His everything. Even before being a christian, I had a job at one of the multi-national companies, holding the mantle of being the executive manager in the accounting department, having a faithful boyfriend who was an atheist, and a big fat bank account.
And Abraham said, “My son will provide for Himself the lamb for a burnt offering.” So the two went together.
My nights were typically spent with nights out, alcohol, having to binge over with my friends, wasting my time, and being wasted almost every single night.
Then they came to the place of which the God had told him. And Abraham built an altar there and placed the wood in order; and he bound Issac his son and laid him on the altar, upon the wood. And Abraham stretched out his hands and took the knife to kill his son.
“Lord… Please help me, improve my life.” A simple prayer, drop everything to me, join full-time ministry. an immediate response, I was still sober after a late night drink. I woke up the next day, it was not a dream, he really did ask me to drop everything. “What do you mean by everything, Lord?” everything, He replied.
But the angel of the Lord called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!”
So he said, “here I am.”
The resignation letter was all prepped, I went into the boss’ office, explained that I had greater purpose in life, my calling, and he shooed me off almost instantaneously. My colleagues were intending to throw another of those parties, I rejected, telling them I was not going to lead such an alcoholic, and binging life again.
My job, the alcohol, My bank account was next in the list, I emptied my bank account, and surrendered it all to my church. I walked into the room where Pastor Vincent was, I asked him whether I could be in a full-time ministry or not, he told me that I needed some qualifications through the bible college, with a hollowed bank account.
And He said, ” Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son from me.”
Adamant was I, my boyfriend was in disagreement with me, we broke up. It was part of His plans too. I discussed with my family, they could not support me because they could even barely support themselves. Nothing seemed understandable, His ways, I was shrouded in total enigma, I followed His words instead of bothering, worrying about anything that I had to sacrifice, to give away, in obedience.
“Lord, please guide me.” No response this round, several times after, same. I still trusted Him. My job, my relationship, my bank account, the alcohol, my everything and I’d nothing left. A letter came by the next day saying that I was given a full scholarship to study His words.
Then Abraham lifted his eyes and looked, and there behind him was a ram caught in a thicket by its horns. So Abraham went and took the ram, and offered it up for a burnt offering instead of His son. And Abraham called the name of the place, The-Lord-Will-Provide; as it is said to this day, “In the Mount of the Lord it shall be provided.”
–Genesis 22 8-14
For the previous piece: Moriah Moments #6