My body is weak.
How can I fall sick twice in a two months span?
Too much stress, I reckoned.
It is not like I simply eat or sleep,
All of it originated from stress,
I did not cope well with it, I reckoned.
Academics, relationships, handling people.
Too much, why am I like this?
If I am working, how hard it could be,
None of this bullshit will happen.
Why is my body that traumatized by this period of life?
I still could not understand.
I just need to switch up my sleeping schedule,
Eat more consistently,
Easier to be said than to be done.
I should stop blaming everything.
I should stop blaming myself.
I should stop, just stop blaming.
I… I must change,
Endure, persevere and go with the flow.
No point at fighting back or going against the flow.
Handling people is not my forte, especially relationships.
I should be patient, draw the line where it should be drawn.
Stop overthinking, stop stressing myself out.
Just doing one thing less,
It should be easy.