losing it.

time is dripping away

so as my life force

dwindling into subtle nothingness

drifting away from consciousness

i do not know

how long or how far

am i away from diving into

an abysmal darkness, blackness.

zip.

my head had a mild trance.

zip.

not once,

a frequent occurring issue

an invisible, but palpable

problem.

zip.

i kept losing my head

to a throbbing pain

ebbing away my essence of life

treading on deep waters

zip.

i…

zip.

feel like closing my eyes

take a rejuvenating rest

but

zip.

the damage dealt is…

zip.

.

cannot be undone.

zip.

.

i’m afraid

of losing me.

zip. 

everytime i have an idea

it will be a murder.

everytime i have something

in my head

i can’t remember shit

it just happened in a flash

everything *poof*

i forget

forgotten about what to do

forgotten about the purpose

forgotten about me

zip.

.

zip.

.

my memory is starting

to fail me

not once.

i…

zip.

.

zip.

.

i…

can’t think

straight anymore.

i…

zip.

.

zip.

.

i…

am…

zip.

.

.

losing it.

losing me.

lost.

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