hi…
a week before
you were adamant
for a change
you were hungry
you were desperate
where did all of those go?
you were cleansed
by your tears
you were changed
by you heart
what have you become?
i…
i don…
i don’t know anymore
i doubted
stupid me
i thought,
it was just a thought
they were all fake
all FAKE!
i am lying to myself
constantly
i am just a big fat liar
nothing that i have said
i have kept unto
i just break everything that i have said
every single word
nothing is true
my mouth breeds lies
that i truthfully accept
darkness
nothingness
i am blind
i cannot see
i cannot feel
i am lost
i do not know where i am
i do not know why
i am senseless
i…
“one day, you will not regret.”
i am not giving up
i am simply losing me
oblivious of what i am, still.
aimless as ever
as if i was snatched by the devil
being thrown into a pit
of abysmal confusion
i am just so lost
lost
.
.
.
i do not know where
i do not know purpose
i do not even know me
anymore
God.
help me.
this is the last bit of sanity
my last bit of conscience
seeking You
reaching You
i do not know how long
how much longer
this bit of me
can last.
hopefully.
long enough
to restore, me.
God,
help me.
i…
am…
losing myself…
again…
i do not know
i am…
fading.
returning back to square one.
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