time
and time
time
is ticking
rushing,
pulsating,
blurry.
the rush is prominent in my veins
how long can it last?
a subjective question
the previous one lasted for a year or so
hopefully this will last for a lifetime
i do not want to spiral into
a cycle of nothingness again.
catharsis
is a form of purging of feelings
diving deep into the depths of my heart
excavating the untold
the invisible
the ugly side of me
i am doing this
is because i believe
through writing
i am able to express myself
more or less in a form of art
i need to make sure
that every gossamer thread
of malignancy
is out of me
completely.
building back from broken blocks
scavenging all that is left
dust, distress, demotivating.
my writings
are at my worst
rock bottom
is never deep enough
i am going beyond rock bottom
hitting the infinite point of
humans’ folly
my attitude
is messed up
my sleep schedule
is messed up
my life
is in a mess
this is a journey
of redefining me
of searching the lost me
of reaching out to me
God.
help me.
plea…
time
and time again
time
is running out
but,
you can still scroll through your phone for memes
you can still watch useless Youtube videos
you can still waste your time on your phone
you can still stare at your phone for four hours per day
you can still rather look at your phone rather doing something productive
you can still look at the ugly reflection of yours through the empty phone screen
you can still aimlessly wander in social media
you said time is running out,
but you take time for granted
how is God going to help you?
if you are not going to help yourself?
what is your logic?
you really think that the skies will fall for you?
who do you think you are?
you are just a mere human
an ordinary shitting machine
that is all
if you still take time for granted,
do not regret
do not blame
do not speak
be ashamed of yourself,
you.
i…
God.
please, help me.
i am just me
give me the strength to pull this off.
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