my brain, it hurts
i really…
i think i am going back
to square one.
nothing had changed
i am still, me
back to square one.
my conscience, is once again
buried deep
in the depths of nothingness
i could not tell anymore
whether i am still, alive.
silence, darkness, nothingness
confusion
what is happening to me?
i am so curious as to why
am i going back
to square one again.
i wanted to call me out
but nothing came out
nothingness, muted
wondering, pondering
wandering, rendering
*blank*
*blank*
*blank*
the numbing pain
*blank*
i am starting to lose my memories again
*blank*
*blank*
no feelings
no touch
no sight
no nothing.
waves of nothingness, starting to overwhelm
not finding myself
not wanting to
i… *blank*
*blank* me.
emptiness.
.
nothingness.
.
hollow.
.
breathing. i am still breathing
keep on breathing
what is the reason
behind all these?
the night
everlasting
my mind
neverlasting
gasping for air
am i?
am i still?
alive?
“waking up at 4 am”
“winning the first battle of the day
wins you the morale for the day
winning more battles for the day.”
“purpose powers life.”
without purpose
.
.
.
am i still alive?
.
.
.
what is my purpose
.
.
?
what
is
happening?
life?
living?
what?
*blank*
Craving for more? Down below:
catharsis #4
Lost In Japan (Day 2)
Catharsis… #3
Lost In Japan (Day 1)
Katharsis #2
Catharsis #1
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