“wake up.”

“wake up!”

“you’v…

who am i…?

what am i doing here…?

am i still… 

alive? me?

my eyes were burned with
searing white lights
tiring, lethargic,
wearied, my soul.

fall back

just fall back into that trance

the peaceful trance

the unwarranted reverie

the beautiful nightmare

fall back into it

never wake up from it again

soundly,

peacefully,

lay back.

wher…

“you’ve been asleep
for a year and a half!”

huh?

“wasting a year and a half
in total”

“wake up.”

“wa…

Poof!

i forgot

my mind has been reset

i forgot what had happened

my mind has been reset
to seek for comfort
temporal comfort

i am tired
my bones are screaming
muscles hurt
knees weak

take out your phone

browse through Youtube

watch nonsensical videos

sleep through your studies

go, do those.

watch Youtube, watch videos, watch Youtube, watch videos, watch Youtube, watch Youtube, watch Youtube, watch Youtube, where are the new videos? I am craving for more! Give me! Give me more videos! Just fucking give me those videos, i want to satisfy the emptiness in my soul.

i feel empty after watching

meaninglessness

i feel empty after watching

so what? watch MORE!

watch, watch, watch, watch, Youtube, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll, Twitter, watch, watch, watch, watch, Youtube, scroll, scroll, scroll, scroll, Twitter, watch, watch, watch, watch, Youtube.

Keep watching.

Do not stop.

waste more time

keep watching

keep watching

keep it up

not enough

watch more

not enough

watch more

wha…

nothing is enough

i am…

watch more! Youtube!

don’t know.

watch more! Youtube!

useless

watch more! Youtube!

damn…

i am done.

i am so done.

i am not getting me back.

What are you thinking?

watch more! Youtube!

Stop thinking!

watch more!

Numb that fucking mind of yours!

watch more!

watch more!

.

.

.

i can’t

i just can’t

anymore

i want to stop

i want freedom

but i never disciplined myself

freedom = discipline

i can never do it

my discipline

i am so done

this is grueling

dreaded

treachery

.

watch more!

stop thinking!

watch more!

let your life pass you by!

watch more!

.

.

.

i just can’t stop myself

i just can’t help myself

the shortcomings

the negativity

the downfalls

are conspicuous

clear and right in front of me

i still can’t hold myself.

.

.

. watch more!

Help… 

watch more!

God…

watch more!

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