forgetting

is the root of being human

apparently

i am forgetting something

someone

someone who is important

very important…

i know i forget

but i do not know

who i am forgetting.

my senses are dwindling

i do not want to lose my conscience again

it is a race against time

if i linger more here

in this broken world

the more that i have to lose

i had too much to lose

leaving me only nothing left to lose.

taken for granted;

oblivious;

lackadaisical;

stupid.

A prophetic voice rumbled across my mind field, trumpets sounded as echoes of the wind, the contours of the flow was prominent, I could not catch what was happening, everything was jargon. I was still, “remember” a monotonous commanding voice reverberated inside me, deep down inside me, I knew His presence, but I was in denial, absolute denial.

my reality is crumbling down

once again

because of my denial,

ignorance, puerile heart.

for the millionth time,

i still could not grasp His presence

after i got hold of myself

i am sorry, Lord. i have failed once more, realising too late, i am about to be sucked back into the feedback loop from hell. insincere, fake. my heart knows but i just refuse to corroborate, show my eyes, that you can do wonders.

nothingness. emptiness

left in the dark.

this is what i get

i deserve this

after all that i have done,

i am not worthy

of His love.

“No.”

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me…
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

“I remember now.”

“Everything I am for Your kingdom’s cause.”

As I walk from earth into

eternity…

Dear God,
I come to You
Just as I am,
I lay down all my sins
and the times that I have
forgotten You.
Forgive me, please.
Shed Your grace upon me
Show me Your mercy.

I declare in the power of Your name
That I am a child of God
I am Your child
I will not be forsaken
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom’s cause
As I walk from earth into eternity.

hosanna in the highest.

Amen.

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