why. why.
my. my.
i am back in this state
the state where
hope and dreams
are pixelated.
the instantaneous escapes,
the immediate gratifications,
the almost too real
life that is present
in front of your very eyes
locked in the rectangular box
in an unending cycle of
refreshing,
re-watching,
renewing.
i am tired.
but i still want to watch
another Youtube video.
i am tired.
just another Youtube video
knowing very well that
i want to sleep
instead
just one more,
another one.
i am addicted
i am aware
but i can do no more than
staring into the pixelated reality.
tick tock.
4 hours gone into Youtube
watching videos
re-watching videos
learning nothing
learning something
entertaining sometimes
self-deprecating at times
the rest of the time
split attentions into Twitter
what a waste of time
why not waste it on me?
this is wasting time
into a thing
that is made-up.
why not waste all of the time
into me?
why are you neglecting me?
why are you so addicted to it?
am i joke to you?
i…
help me
God.
.
.
.
“Ask.”
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