“Why do you spend so much time on your phone?”

I don’t know, I just feel like it.

“Is it worth the time?”

No, I know.

“Do you really know?”

.

“Do you acknowledge that you are wasting time?”

Probably, no.

“Why do you want to spend time on Youtube?”

I just want to kill time.

“By watching the same / worthless videos?”

yes.

“Does it benefit you?”

Not in anyway possible.

“then, why are you still doing it?”

i really don’t know.

“are you in denial?”

probably, yes.

“Why are you in denial?”

My body just wants more of Youtube. I can’t help it.

“What can you do about it?”

Stop doing so.

“I bet you have a choice, right?”

yes, i do have a choice.

“but, why do you still choose to waste it on Youtube?”

how many times. i. don’t. know.

“Why Youtube? Why not other stuffs?”

i am lazy. i am a coward.
i prefer Youtube because it is comfortable.

“Why not change your choice?”

Do I have one?

“yes, do you want to change?”

…Yes.

“What is stopping you?”

me

“Do something about it, are you going to?”

no. i just want to be in the comfort zone.

“Why don’t you get out of it?”

it is tiring.

“Being tired is a choice. isn’t it?”

yes. i can choose to change.

“Are you going to change?”

yes.

“How are you going to do so?”

delete Youtube and Twitter.

“Do you plan to choose to live with it?”

calling a truce would be difficult

“Are you really going to do so?”

i am going to delete them.

“what are you going to substitute them with?”

probably some blogging, and reading.

“Are you sure about this?”

no

“are you scared of leaving them behind?”

yes.

“why? they are just like Facebook.”

i know… but…

“But what? What do you know?”

i don’t. i should not be into these in the first place.

“Are you determined for the change?”

yes, i am sick and tired of living this life.

“Do you want change?”

yes.

help me. God.

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