the times when i lost control

Relapse, withdrawal, relapse, withdrawal, relapse, withdrawal. This time it is not that different, but totally different from the previous times that I fall into this feedback loop from hell. I went back into the addiction cycle that I gotten rid of years ago, this time was more hellish compared to the previous time. Imagine yourself, […]

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i am grateful for 2020

i am grateful for 2020.
thank you 2020 for all the experiences, opportunities and everything along with it.

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To The Point Of No Return

This is one of my ways to get my feelings off my chest. I just have to do it, in this written form.

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Switched

This is a post talking about the recent changes of my life. I switched courses from Pure Maths to Pure Mechanical Engineering. Although I had to waste one year doing so, but I would rather waste one year learning something new and applicable rather than four years doing outdated stuffs that would not add value to me. Realising it late is indeed painful and time-consuming but I take it as an expensive lesson that cost a year to learn how to always self-reflect from time to time with clarity.

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Decisions. Decisions.

This is what have been going on inside my head for the past few months. Quite messy and rather screwed up. But, it is a matter of getting a slap from my conscience and waking up to clear my head. It is not a good piece to read, but please do not let this writing affect you negatively.

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Willpower Is Limited

This post is more like a rant and contains a lot of negativity, if you do not want to take in or be affected by any of this, please do not read this post. I want to vent out my feelings at this place as writing do help with re-aligning myself.

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stuffs and things

this is a post. i talk to myself. see what is going on with myself. this is some sort of therapy for me. i want to know whether i am still on track or not.

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