There are two reasons that I enter university, one is to explore my dreams in discovering a formula that can benefit mankind, another one is to secure the piece of paper that would define me in this current society. The first reason is a little unrealistic for it to happen because this university has exceeded my expectations by breaking most of the lowest bars that I have set for myself. The second reason would sound more realistic, right?

Hey everyone, I am Bryan, currently studying at University Technology Malaysia (UTM) in Johor Bharu. The course that I have taken is Bachelor of Science in Mathematics or a degree in Pure Maths.

A little background of myself, I love Maths with a burning passion because Maths is beautiful. At this point in time when I am still young (21 ahem), I have told myself that I must study hard and smart to see how high I could go in this territory. I am a straightforward person- no hiding around the bush, a slightly arrogant / over-confident person- sometimes I think that I am better than everyone, I also like to have my own opinions (quite strongly) to be imposed on other people. Plus, I had worked my ass off for a year in the education industry, tutoring, so I do have my own standards when it comes to teaching.

Here is a disclaimer, my opinions are solely mine, I mean no offence to anyone, I am just speaking from my experience and my feelings at this period of time. So, here is my first year experience in UTM as a Maths student.

Video Summary

First Impressions

UTM is actually not my first choice of university, it was my fourth choice. However, I got the course that I want to study. In Malaysia’s higher education system, it is rare that you get what you want to study, it is even rarer that you get what you want to study and where you want to study, especially for people like me. Malaysia still runs on quota system, not meritocracy. I have already crossed a couple of lines as I am speaking, so I just want to say that I am not the majority and I am not privileged enough to be seen equally as a Malaysian even though I have a blue IC stating that I am a Malaysian. Although this university is not my first choice, but I am grateful (I had to be because I could not do anything about the system in place) for the place given to me with the course that I want to study.

This was very, very unexpected. The lack of meritocracy literally fucked my plans for my future. Naturally, I told myself to set my expectations low, or to not expect anything. It is better this way, I do not want to feel my expectations go to die. (You know the feeling)

A small tip to those who are filling up your application for public university in Malaysia, please do not simply fill in the secondary choices of yours because even if you get a 3.75 for Sciences in STPM, you are not guaranteed to get those not-so-popular courses offered by your desired university. Think twice before filling in. If you are lost about how to fill in, fill them in according to ranking first, because even if the conditions in the higher ranking university sucks, you will still get a more valuable certificate than those of lower ranking.

The first week was orientation, as usual, they just wasted a week of our time to get us into the ‘mood’. Same mistake made twice by the government education institutions. However, in the midst of the wasting time, I had time to think about what my next moves are, and to settle down myself. I got myself out of their mundane, useless talks and briefings which could be summarised in point forms and temporarily be in their choir that is going to perform at the end of the week. What I do not like about this orientation was that, I had an incident that a random 2nd-Year stranger slept in my bed without my permission- soiling my bed with his sweat- when I was gone practising for the choir. Another annoying shit was that they made a hell lot of noise just to get us up in the morning for the next round of orientation. But, looking at the bright side, the people at UTM are friendly and nice, they can be good friends.

In general, I feel like I have entered a place where the pacing is slower, probably two times slower than what it is in KL. The other aspects are still OK, period.


This is somewhat disappointing, I have not yet met lecturers who are really good at Maths. What I mean by that is when you meet the lecturer, you somehow want to listen to what he has to say and you can feel his passion when doing Maths. Two semesters have passed, but nope. The only thing that I have for my future lecturers is that you don’t screw me up- by not teaching the wrong concepts, not being racist, not having double-standards, not being over the head if you are not that good- then it is all good. I can only rate my lecturers, at best an average score, because beyond that is non-existent, period. What I mean by average is knowing the required knowledge and teaching with the prerequisite responsibility of an educator, there are only a handful of them, around 20 percent of them, if you get one or two of these during a semester, consider yourselves lucky.

Now, unto the lecturers that are ‘unique’ and ‘special’ in their own way (which composed around 80 percent)

There are those who are racist, I no need to describe more about this. If you enter their class, you will feel them judge you by your skin colour, for the entire semester (I am using them because there is still a significant percentage of lecturers are like that) and your marks might depend on your skin colour and your name. Ya, our university’s finals still wants us to write our full names on our papers, so that they know which race sit for the exams. Why are we supposed to write our names if some of you are going to be racist and unfair when marking our papers? Why not just fill in our IC number and our Student ID, aren’t these requirements fairer?

There are those who are pretentious and egoistic, especially those who have higher rankings in the management of the university. They ‘act’ like they are doing their job with excellence, but in fact they delegate most of their responsibilities to ‘teaching assistants’ who are struggling to get their own shit together to carry out their job. They also have the ‘know-it-all’ feel flooding the room, their noses are always higher than yours, you always feel like you are belittled in front of them, simply condescending. At times when they are wrong when discussing a particular concept, they just brush through nonchalantly and acting like nothing has happened or they just skipped the entire part, leaving it up to us to google.

There are those who are, I don’t know how they can become lecturers teaching Maths in the first place, they can’t even get some basic facts right. For instance,
i) They do not know the total maximum probability is 1.
ii) Another eye wrenching ones are those when it comes to proving some concepts, they can simply solve half of the equation for the LHS and for the RHS and consider it proved, why not just multiply zero on both sides then consider it proved then?
iii) One more regarding epsilon-delta definition of limit which is one of the most basic analytical concepts of mathematics could not be shown or proved by multiple lecturers in the faculty, they just shrugged away with my question and finally I just looked it up myself on the internet.
iv) Some more ridiculous ones are those who took 2 hours to inverse a 3×3 matrix and failed doing so.
v) The most ridiculous one which became a meme among my friends is when I was asking how to use Cayley-Hamilton theorem (Linear Algebra), the lecturer replied to me that this is a theorem discovered by someone called Cayley-Hamilton. That was the answer he gave me. What. The. Fuck. That was when I literally gave up on the majority of lecturers in my faculty. Come on, if you really do not know about something, just admit it and google it, what is so hard in admitting your incapabilities?

Me and my friends did try to correct them multiple times but to no avail, it is just useless and time-wasting to bother their mistakes.

There are those lecturers who are uncertain about everything or able to create confusion almost all the time. These people give us unnecessary burden for our minds, making life harder for students in general. Why can’t you be certain with what you say? At some lectures, when I slightly pay attention to what the lecturers had to say, often times I found self-study is a better choice than listening to them, they can be misleading at most times and often being confusing by not being clear with some easy concepts or not being align with what they previously said.

There are those lecturers who do not know what they are doing. If you do not know what you doing, why are you even teaching the subject? Are you trying to bring us down? We did try to ask these lecturers consistently about the compulsory tests, projects, marks that they are incapable to telling us, and there was once we even brought things up to the dean, which apparently all these are just worthless efforts.

There are those who disappear for half of the semester just to come back to existence to ask us to evaluate them. What in the world. These are the subjects- U course, the so-called ‘killer’ subjects just because of their inept lecturers and course structure. Your shortcomings should not be affecting my CGPA, these unknown pressure applied to students is not healthy at all. At this point, I gave up on caring for these subjects because there is no point in doing so, the grades given are almost random, so ya.

These traits of lecturers are real, and I can attest to them. I do not want to say names in this video, but you know who you are. Some lecturers have multiple traits mentioned above, so beware. If you get any lecturers as mentioned above, pray to God and know that you need to work hard unnecessarily to make sure you have enough receipts / evidence to score the subject.

That is why my views on them are just ‘as long as you do not screw me over then it is all good’. I am not hoping anything from them. If I don’t know anything, it is better for me to ask myself or google, rather than waiting for their answers which is sometimes the misleading one or no answer. My expectations were low, but damn, it is simply disappointing seeing this happening in the Top 5 University in Malaysia and 187-th in QS rankings. We always joked about how the better lecturers are at the engineering faculty, and I think that is the case.


I can say after two semesters of studying, I still find these two semester combined could not even come close to one semester during my STPM-days (Form 6 or A-level equivalent). The syllabus is just too easy. Yes, I am not afraid to say it, and I can prove it too. A lot of stuff that are taught were just taken from A-level Maths and Further Maths and STPM, only a marginal 35 percent are new stuffs which are also just taught on the surface level.

To be honest, I feel a little disappointed also because I applied for this course is because I want to do more rigorous Maths, more analysis, more proofing, not coming in to just know how to use a particular formula. This course’s name is Bachelor of Science in Mathematics, I signed up for all the rigorous stuffs, not coming in to plug in, substituting formulas and theorems, these are the jobs of the engineers, not mathematicians. Mathematicians are supposed to know more about how a concept come about, more analysis, more proofing not just merely subbing numbers into equations.

Let’s say if you want to know more about a concept, how to derive a certain equation, you would not get answers from our fellow lecturers, ask google. Trust me. I have experienced it almost every time. This is because the lecturers have a mindset that these are not important for us future mathematicians, so you can see how this place works.

Of course, from another perspective, if you just want an easy degree certificate to enter the working society, you are welcome to UTM. If you have an average sense in Mathematics and have a firm enough foundation in Mathematics, you can easily be the first class in the course. Even if you are not-so-good in Mathematics, like still having a tough time doing simple differentiation and integration or applying basic statistics concepts, you can still pass with a certificate at hand.

My point is, this course is too easy. If you do not hate Maths, you can definitely graduate with a degree in Maths in UTM. Personally, I was able to finish an entire semester (around 3 or 4 Maths classes) in a month and a half, give and take, while also completing and compiling their tutorials, tests and finals to share them with the entire faculty. To be honest, this is considered slow already because I was toying around.

On the flip side, I am worried about whether my certificate have enough credibility to help me get into better universities overseas to do my Masters or even to secure a job.

A little hack to those who are studying in UTM, just do the finals for what you are studying, you are guaranteed a B+ and above mark. If you are lucky, an A would not be a problem.

Management of The Course

The office of this faculty does not allow us to take any extra classes. I thought this is a university where we can choose what we want to study as long as it is within what we are required to study. Hmm, maybe I am wrong, perhaps this is just an elevated version of a high school where you only can go to classes that are already assigned to you. Seriously, I had tried a few times to get extra credit for my semester and even some of my seniors tried, but no one got it, we even got a ‘lecture’ from the office and from our academic advisor.

When we are asked to ‘choose’ our classes for the 2nd semester, we are not exactly ‘choosing’, there is no exact timetable for the classes nor which lecturer is conducting the class, we are just given random section numbers to ‘choose’ from, we only can pray that no classes clash with each other and hope for the timing of the classes make sense, no big gaps in between classes.

My friends at other faculties have these ‘basic’ choices of choosing the time of the lecture and even the lecturer who is teaching the class. I am not comparing, I am just saying where is my ‘basic’ rights to make my choice?

Up until this point I have accepted the fact that the office does not want anyone to disturb their ‘order’ in their arrangement of classes. So, I better take this time on my hand to do other things more beneficial rather than ‘complaining’ about them because they would not change no matter what.


Generally, they are good people, most of them can be friends, but never teammates. Until this point of life, taking this course, some of them could not understand simple factorisation, some of them could not do simple differentiation and integration, some of them could not even understand basic mathematical concepts, some of them are irresponsible, quite a number of them are just straight up lazy. Therefore, when doing assignments, our lecturers knew very well how to delegate each group (normally according to skin colour), they had at least one person who is capable of doing the assignment in each group, making sure no one screws up the carry marks.

Most of my coursemates are just here to be here, going to university just for the sake of getting a degree to find a job, living one day by one day. Bagai kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang. There is nothing wrong about it, I am totally fine of you wanting a normal life. I can bet about half of them do not even know what they want to do after the degree, another group of people might just not want to be in this course or just picked this course out of no other choices (not knowing what this leads to). What to do?

Points aside, it is saddening to not see anyone with a great passion for Maths in this university, I thought I would meet someone who has a burning passion for Maths in university ever since I was in high school. But, I think I am wrong.


Generally, the people in UTM are good people, perhaps only my faculty is like this. I know some other people from other faculties, they are very hardworking and have a goal in their lives. My friends even cited that my faculty is a little bit weird, in the sense that they have more people with better study spirit. Nonetheless, the majority of UTM is very easy-going, not-really fast paced, chill people. Very different from the people in KL, somehow they will give you a feeling of ‘Nevermind lah, no need to bother so much about anything’ type of vibe.

However, if you look deeper, by attending different clubs and societies or just helping out in some events, you might get to see the hidden gems in UTM. They are the ones who work their asses off silently with greatness waiting ahead of them. Luckily, there are still these kinds of people existing in UTM, or else I would be speechless and doubtful about this university. Normally, when you talk to them, they would not show much or talk much, but if you talked more with them, you would be awed with their achievements. I have talked to some people who had multiple research exchanges overseas, some great people in the fields of robotics who won UTM several championship worldwide, some founders of small start-ups that have quite a success around UTM, some great photographers and videographers.

UTM did produce some really great people, like the one who founded al-Ikhsan, the one who helped in the capture of a photo of the black hole.

Although I had mentioned most of my faculty is not-so-good, perhaps a change in perspective would be better.

Got leng zai or leng lui or not? Yes, there are. You just need to know where to find them.

Best & Worst Experience in UTM

My best experience in UTM is attending Robocon, it is like a competition to recruit people to build robots to compete at both national and international level. It was an eye-opener having to join Robocon, although I did give up halfway but I realised how much can a person push themselves and see really passionate people doing what they are really passionate about. Eventhough I bust my ass round and round and feeling really, really tired, but I actually learned some new stuffs after entering UTM. It is one of the best moments that I had in UTM, almost like a wake-up call for me when I was slumping around, still finding ways to adapt into UTM.

My worst experience in UTM is UTMSAT or KoQ Day. This is a compulsory system implemented by UTM out of nowhere, forcing people to join clubs and societies, or else it will blemish our final certificate. In my opinion, the motto of the system is good but the execution and presentation is just a waste of time and effort. You can read more about it here. I do not want to waste too much time talking about this. In summary, this system is shit because it was not planned at all beforehand and everything is just a mess which results into a burden and a waste of time to students where it is mandatory to spent (waste) around 8 hours on every Tuesday just to get two attendance. This is also a heads-up for those who wants to apply for UTM, this stupid system affects everyone in UTM.


Chill, very chill. The general impression that was given to me throughout this two semester is the chill vibe. I do not know about you, but I really do not like this type of vibe, probably because I come from KL and I had worked at fast-paced company before, so I do things snappily, I do not like things to be dragged out for too long.

The chill vibe can be good at times, it gives me some extra time to think about what I am doing. But, most of the times, the chill vibe have affected me greatly, from a person who worked and studied simultaneously previously, earning a decent income monthly to this dude right here literally just killing time by doing nothing. I have stopped being productive after entering uni, perhaps this is like a rest for me to think about life.

Hahaha… Bullshit. These are just excuses that I gave myself. The environment can really affect how you live your life. So, I am tuning myself back on track by doing something, like this Youtube, doing Maths outside of UTM, learning Japanese, and occupying my time with productive activities.

Clubs & Societies

I am quite neutral about this. If you like to do something, like doing music, UTM will have a club for you. Mostly of what you can think of, the more common hobbies, there is a club for you. There are many people entering different clubs for very different reasons. Some enter a club for fame, some for status, some for recognition, some for attention, some for getting know people, some for doing what they are passionate about, some for killing time, some to just be with friends. You get my point, enter a club with the right intentions, and you will get what you want.

Plus, if you are entering a club to gain experience, do it with humility and with the right attitude. University is a place for you to try out stuffs that you have not ever tried before, so do not be afraid of being at the wrong if you hold true to yourself with the right attitude. I bet you do not like to see fake-ass bitches roaming around in a club just for fame and attention, that would not last long, so do not be those people.

Living Environment

Have you ever been to Cameron Highlands? UTM is more or less like that. The chill vibe that the majority of people had, and the copious amount of trees surrounding the campus. It is more like going for a 4-year vacation than actually studying. There were many rainy afternoons orchestrated with forest breeze, cajoling me to take a 2-hour nap even when I know I got to do something more productive. Some nights, bees visited me and my roommate, or else everything is good.

My dorm is often in the not-so-good condition category, my friends often joked that I stay in a haunted building, and ya, it really looks haunted at night. Plus, the lights around my dorm and around UTM are always dysfunctional, we also joked about how advanced UTM technology is that we use the moon as our main source of light at night. And, the worse part is that the toilet around my dorm building is poorly maintained, they are dirty most of the times, a lot of doors could not be closed, so we have to result into taking a brick to act as a door-stopper when we have to bath or take a shit.

Apart from that, as a runner, the routes in UTM actually make good cardio training for running marathons. To prepare for the Penang Bridge marathon last year, I trained by running up and down Bukit Cerapan and also by walking to and fro my classes because the UTM buses are quite misleading and cannot be trusted.

Generally, UTM gives a chill vibe while living here, as I said, it is more like going for a vacation rather than studying.

Amenities / Food

I had a tough time with the food for most of the time. The chinese has a saying that goes, 水土不合, which means I am not accustomed to this place’s custom, like food. For almost every meal that I had taken in or outside UTM, I had to shit myself out really hard. The worst one is at our faculty under a shady hut, the food there is like laxatives, everytime I had a meal there, I will sure have diarrhoea non-stop for the day. There was once I caught a bad stomach ache and was puking non-stop because I ate their food. Not only that, this happens to quite a number of food stores in UTM. So, just beware of what you eat in UTM.

But there are good foods too in UTM, the one that I like most is the Istanbul guy near my dorm and the vegetarian food there. Some other food stores are too far away from my dorm. Probably will make a video about it in the future?

It is quite convenient to go shopping for basic needs, there is a supermarket outside, just need to grab some friends and take grab outside to Taman U. There is also a dobi there to wash clothes. For myself, I like to go out once a week to get some fresh air. But, if you are finding those stuffs but not wanting to go out, every college should have a mini-market and a dobi.

If you want to go for movies, cheong-K, gym or whatsoever, just Grab. It is quite convenient to do so. Some more, Singapore is below Johor, getting there for a small get-away is quite easy too, just remember to bring your passport.

The best facility in UTM is the swimming pool. Pick the right time, normally in between classes, go for a swim and the entire swimming pool is yours for an entry fee of RM 3 during weekdays. That place is well maintained and quite clean.

For transportation wise, the buses are capable of bringing you around UTM, but they are quite slow and often at low frequency during non-peak hours and during peak hours, the buses will be packed like sardines. So, Grab, bicycling, and walking are the go-to for a lot of travelling within UTM.

Why Bethesda?

Bethesda is a pool where people wait there for miracles to happen, mostly for healing. But, there were no actual records of people being healed by jumping into the pool, they just simply believed an empty promise and waited for something to happen. They were stuck. They kept going back to something familiar that was disappointing all the time. It is like being trapped in some sort of trance, surviving. At points of desperation, we seek comfort at a Bethesda. It organises our fear and pain so beautifully that it created a trap for us in the form of comfort.

I did not see this coming from a mile away. I only realised this during the lockdown, which is after one and a half semester. From someone who had a productivity level of 7 or 8 out of 10, to now a mere 2 or 3. I kept wasting my time doing things that can be done at a shorter period of time, like the Parkinson’s effect- “work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion”- and I felt good about it without realising how much I have fallen from my past self. There is no use regretting or blaming myself anymore, I have done more waiting and wasting than doing efficiently, it is about time that I get my shit together and think about how to get back to high productivity and getting out of the trap of comfort zone.


Nothing much. I hope that I can maintain my burning passion for Maths and get back my limitless productivity in this type of environment, and to learn more Maths outside of this uni.

Hopefully this post / video would not affect my status in my studies, I do not want this post to be like something I wrote previously (MY FORM 6 EXPERIENCE: A PAIN AND A GAIN IN VAIN. (STPM)) which got me into a hell lot of trouble. I mean I have the rights to voice out my opinions and it is not wrong to do so if I spoke from my experience and my feelings, I am just giving my honest feedback and hopefully someone hears it and make some changes, although I know this would unlikely happen due to the bureaucracy and the systemic flaw that most of Malaysia’s university have. So, I just hope that my writings / voice would give a heads-up to people who wants to enter public uni in Malaysia to not expect much from them because they often break your expectations.


I do regret the times during my SPM and STPM (IGCSE and A-Level equivalent) that I did not study harder to achieve the best score. I realised this a little too late. If I had… There is no ifs and buts now. I just want to say, to those who are taking your SPM, STPM, IGs, A-Levels, IB, put in your full effort while doing so in order to get the best result to go to better places with better environment. I am not saying Malaysia is all bad and having a normal life is all bad, but if you want something better or a change for yourself, work hard and smart for it, do not be lazy.

Although I might sound regretful from my writings, this is what it is, I still need time to adapt and learn to take advantage of my environment and circumstances. It is a steep learning curve from my consequences of not scoring good enough (3.75) in my STPM. I need to put in more effort, the right effort, in discovering my hopes and dreams- to discover a formula that can benefit mankind.

Hope. Joy.. Feelings cloaked as words.

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Calligrapher Redesigns Famous Chinese Restaurants’ Name | Write With Ink | 墨迹

Hey everybody, I am Bryan. Today on Write With Ink, we are going to re-design famous chinese restaurants’ name. I have picked two of them, Firstly, Dragon-I. In Chinese is 龍的傳人 (long2 de chuan2 ren2), in Cantonese is (long dek chuen yan). Secondly, Din Tai Feng. In Chinese is 鼎泰豐 (ding3 tai4 feng1) in Cantonese is (deng tai fung). They are chain restaurants, so probably you have seen them somewhere.

Both of the restaurants are quite similar because they are famous for the same thing. Siew Long Bao and Lai Min. Personally, I prefer Dragon-i over Din Tai Feng because their Siew Long Bao and Lai Min is tastier than Din Tai Feng, not that they taste bad but Dragon-i is better. Before going into the designing stuff, I want to take a look on their website and find out the origins of their names.

For Dragon-i, 龍的傳人 direct translates to the descendants of the dragon (long2) which is also referring to the Chinese, historically. Plus, the restaurant’s signature dish is Xiao ‘Long’ Bao. So, it all ties together perfectly, forming the name of the restaurant for Dragon-i.

For Din Tai Feng, the website does not really say anything about the name but from the motto behind the restaurant, I can see that they are striving to provide the best quality of a classic taste of ‘Taiwan’. After some research about the individual words of 鼎泰豐, I reckon that the restaurant’s name means a great big cooking wok, 鼎 means the wok as you can see from the shape of the word, and 泰豐 means big and great respectively.

This time I am going to design two small prints, one horizontal and one vertical, and one big big one for them to put it in front of their restaurant for each of them.

Here are comparison photos of the restaurants.

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Calligrapher Designs Catchphrase For Duan Wu Festival | Write With Ink | 墨迹

Hey everyone, I am Bryan. 端午节快乐, Happy Duan Wu Festival to all who are celebrating it. I call it Zongzi Jie. Today on Write with Ink, we are going to design some catchphrases or pick-up lines that can get you laid during this festive season.

A little background on 端午节, it is actually called Dragon Boat Festival in English, according to Wikipedia, which is celebrated near the summer solstice. The origin of the festival is because the fifth month of the Chinese calendar is a bad month so they purposely made a day in this month a celebration to scare away the evil forces of diseases and bad luck.

Rather than having a normal 端午节, why not we spice things up a bit for people out there. If you are single and ready to mingle, let me teach you some catchphrases for this very occasion.


There are three puns in there. First is 情有独‘粽’ (qing2 you3 du3 zhong4) which is derived from 情有独钟 which means having special feelings for someone like love. Secondly, 与‘粽’不同 (yu3 zhong4 bu4 tong3) which is taken from 与众不同 that means different from others. Thirdly is ‘粽’意你 (zhong yi ni) which is read in Cantonese means ‘Love You’. Fourth one is 浓情‘端午’, which means a deep, deep, lovely Duan Wu Festival.

Since this is a less serious video, I will design these words as usual, but I might pick one or two out for each design only.




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Calligrapher Designs xue hua piao piao Lyrics | Write With Ink | 墨迹

Hey everyone, I am Bryan. Today on Write With Ink, I am going to design Xue Hua Piao Piao. This guy singing a 80s Chinese song somehow got the attention of people and became a meme. Fascinating.

This lyrics is sang by Fei Yu Ching in his song Yi Jian Mei, the part that became a meme is the chorus part. To be honest, I do not think that just the chorus contributed to it becoming a meme, but also the “egg-headed” person filming the Dou Yin (China TikTok). Before we go into the breakdown of the lyrics, I am going to read the lyrics.

雪花飘飘 北风萧萧
xue hua piao piao bei feng xiao xiao
tian di yi pian cang mang

The translation is rather simple, it just means that on a snowy winter, the skies are bright. Yup, that’s it. But, if I change my perspective and look at it from the full context, this song is quite meaningful. From the song title Yi Jian Mei and the lyrics itself, it is a love song based on how a plum blossom works. Plum blossoms is one of the most famous flowers in China and it signifies hope and perseverance due to its special quality which allows it to bloom even during the harshest late winter.

After getting the general idea, there are two challenges presented in this part of the chorus that I am going write. One, the irregular phrase structure makes the arrangement of the words weird to think of. The phrase structure for this is 4-4-6 or 4-4-2-2-2 due to the style of the singer which is different from the typical phrase structure of 4-4 or 7-7-7-7. Two, the two repeated words of difficult structure. Definitely, I can simplify the second word by just drawing two dots after the word written (Yes, this is an applicable rule when writing Xing Shu), but this just looks lazy. So, I am up to the challenge to make them look special.

As usual, I will try out a few iterations, and I will pick two out. We will do some research first.

Here is my final product:

Tell me which one you like more, the one on the right or the one on the left. Leave a comment down below to let me know. If you think where can be improved also, please, feel free to comment down below, it helps me out a lot.

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4th Blogiversary A Never-Ending Story

4 years. It has been four full years since I first started this blog. Look at how time flies, I just could not believe it. Looking back at the writings that I have written throughout the years, I felt rather, I did not know how to feel right now. The state of the blog now is as if it has reverted back to its nascent stages where I wrote very infrequently and sporadically, and it has become something rather insignificant to me.

To be honest, I have lost the strength to write quite a while ago, about a year. It has been rough for me, I am in an environment that is rather demotivating. I am devoting most of my strength and effort and the love for Maths to just keep my dream alive, just to survive, to float above the waters of conformity and indifference. I think I did not mention it before in my writings, but just to let you know that I am studying Maths in University Technology Malaysia and the feeling that I get from studying there is loneliness. There is a joke saying that you are too high that nobody is around you, I felt exactly that, my passion for Maths has been and always been very high, as long as it is Maths, I have the willingness to put the effort to understand it, regardless of the difficulty. But, the people around me are not, even the lecturers. That is why I have to use up my extra effort and strength to devote myself into Maths. Sometimes, I felt like being there is just a waste when I could be doing other things that I like with passionate people. However, I have made the decision and I just have to find a way to overcome this predicament. I did not expect doing what I love, chasing my dreams would be so dark and lonely. Perhaps I am not in the right place (which is beyond my control due to constitutional racism in Malaysian education). Since I could not change the condition that I am in, I have to put in extra effort and time in making sure that I do what I can and what I should to be better at Maths as my dreams are to discover a formula to benefit mankind.

I am sorry and thank you for those who have been reading my writings for these years. I really appreciate it. Although it is just one or two views at a time, I do think it is a lot. I am sorry that I have to forfeit most of my strengths here in the area of writing and to make it up to my dreams.

You might ask why I am so obstinate as to not change the environment that I am in, why not change my course to something similar? It is because those are not the things that I want to do and willing to do. Even if I do change it, I am one year into this course, it is slightly too late. So, I guess I have to this as another challenge and find some way to overcome it, quick. I know it does feel good to be the best amongst the not-so-good, but that is way below my standards that I have set for myself in the past. Looking back, I did really fall from grace. From a person who is known as a Maths guru to managing multiple jobs and studying at the same time to now: someone slouching over laziness, procrastination and wondering what’s for lunch everyday, what a fucking achievement. I think this is a good time to improve myself, solo style, since everything around me is nothing but normal. I have to get my shit together, fast, or else I am fucked, literally.

Life is like a sine curve.

I have had my fun and highs in the previous year. Naturally, now I am put to the test of life where no one, I mean not a single soul who is aligned with my dreams, no one is put in my way to help me. But, I am glad that I have built a firm foundation for Maths and God in my younger years.

Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

- Psalms 23:4

Normally it takes time for me to figure things out, like my current condition, I only realised it recently, during the lockdown when I have the time to think through the things that I have been doing ever since I entered university.

I have reflected upon them and finally have the strength to write them down.

For the future of my blog, I think I am turning more into Youtube form of presenting my stories, writing is just too demotivating at the moment (not enough views and traction), and people around me do not really like to read, so Youtube would be my go-to for the near future.

Here is my channel and below is the video I made for the 4th blogiversary.

It is nothing much but at least I feel like I am doing something for my side-passions- calligraphy and creative works.

However, I will still write, from time to time. Not just scripts that you see on my blog, but also content for the blog only. Something like this.

Once again, thank you for those who reads my writings, really appreciate it.

Hope. Joy.. Feelings cloaked as words.

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Calligrapher Designs Quote from One Piece Marine (Justice) | Write with Ink |墨迹

Hey everyone, I am Bryan. Today I am designing the quote 正義 from One Piece Marines. Technically, it is a word but since it is printed on every marine’s attire, I will call it a quote.

The word 正義 can be read as Zheng4 Yi4 in Chinese, and direct translates to Justice in English. As we know in the state of the world right now, justice needs to be served wherever and whenever it is needed. In Chinese, Justice is formed from two individual words which is Zheng4 and Yi4.

This actually gives me an idea of how to design the word. I know which style to apply for each word. For Zheng4, it means straight, sturdy, real or true, and as for Yi4 is means meaning, so perhaps how the Chinese language views the word Justice is for every situation, there is a different meaning for the truth behind it. That means justice means differently for different people and it can bring the real thing into light.

Hmm… Deep.

As usual I will do two iterations on this word, one using my style another using what I can find on the internet (probably 隶书)

So, let’s jump right into it.

Here is my final product.

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Hope you liked it! Leave down in the comments below which one you fill like it is better, the left one or the right one? Let me know in the comments sections below.

Thanks for watching. See you next week with another design.

Learning Hiragana & Katakana in 10 Days.

おはいよおざいます,わたしはbryanです。わたしは UTMの学生です。どぞよるしく,おねいがいします。

Hey everyone, hope everybody is doing well. After two months of MCO and CMCO, I have decided to start learning Japanese since I have not done anything from the start of the lockdown.

There are other reasons that I took on Japanese other than to get rid of my guilty conscience. I like Japan, anime, J-pop, so the best way to learn their culture is through their language. Plus, I have a lot, I mean a lot of free time on my hands, so I want to master a language at this period of time. One more thing is that I might want to go to Japan to either further my studies or to go on bag-pack.

But, the biggest reason of doing this is because I want to do and I am willing to do it.

So, I found Yoko-sensei as my teacher recommended by one of my friends in Japan. She is good, so far I have attended two classes with her and I have learned a lot from her.

To be honest, Japanese language is just a mixture of Chinese and English. As I have learned Chinese and English throughout my study years, Japanese to me is fairly easy. At least easier than Chinese.

However, the biggest challenge in learning a new language is to get used to their alphabets, in this case- Hiragana, Katakana and Kanji. For early stage, learning Hiragana and Katakana is enough to read almost everything in Japanese because Kanji words normally have Hiragana printed on top.

It is very frustrating when I have to process and think how to read the sentences very slowly during classes, but I know this is inevitable, so I really need to put in more effort in reading more Japanese. There is no shortcut to language except for reading more and more, speaking it more and more and also writing it more and more.

Consistency is key. On a daily basis, I put in around 2-3 hours of effort to learn Japanese. An hour once I wake up and another two at night (around the same time). And I take one day off after 5 days of studying Japanese. I usually read aloud the words when I am writing them, I do not care about how others will look at me, I just know that I learn better this way (at least for languages). Plus, I do watch anime quite often with subtitles on, so I pick up what they say along the way.

You can visit this website for Hiragana and Katakana worksheets, it is not worth to spend your money to buy the workbooks on those. And as for textbooks, I am using Minna Nihon-go series to learn.

To prove that I have actually memorised all of them, I will take an online test on hiragana and katakana.

By taking this I believe I have got the basics nailed. But now, I really do need to put in a lot, a lot of effort to get my mastery on reading, writing and speaking up.

So, I am going to set myself a small goal. In one or two month’s time, I am going to make a video entirely in Japanese (10 minutes minimum) to show my progress in learning Japanese.

If you have any tips, resources, websites, channels or advice that you can give me in this learning Japanese journey. Do drop them down in the comments below.

Thanks for watching. Remember to like and share this video if you know anyone who wants to learn Japanese or anyone who knows Japanese. ありがとございます。

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人生有幾多個十年 – 柴九(巾幗梟雄)

How many ten years can a person have?

Hey everyone, today on Write with Ink, I am going to design this quote of Chai Kau from a 2009 Hong Kong series titled 巾幗梟雄 (jin1 guo2 xiao1 xiong2), Rosy Business.

This quote is actually very, very popular at that time. The drama is about drama in a family business regarding rice in the olden days of China. Almost everyone who watched this drama or ever heard of it would have known about this quote. The quote was used by Chai Kau in many impactful ways around the drama. And even taken out of context, it is quite meaningful.

This quote is on the difficult side of designing because there are many easy words in the quote. In calligraphy, the easier the word structure, the harder it is to write and vice versa. It is because the 结构 jie2 gou4 (structure) of the word must be symmetric inside a square. For complicated word structures, it is easy to balance things out because there are many components and you will be more cautious when writing it. But, for easy word structures, there are too little things to balance from and it is easy to make mistakes.

You will see what I meant in a second.

Watch the video below for the full process:

The calligraphy photo is attached below:

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Thanks for watching and reading the post. See you next week!

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Class Review & Sorting Notes (UTM)

Since it is almost the end of my 2nd semester, it is time to sort out my notes in an orderly fashion and snap the tutorials, finals, tests and notes into a soft-copy form.

It is honestly not much but I just compile them to share with my course mates or other people who needs it. That is what I do and I just like to share what I have with them since the university is incapable of doing so, even just the final answers (not including the working) they are unable to give, with accuracy and precision. So, I am just doing what I felt like that is needed to be done.

I have taken four Maths courses for this semester, namely: Computer Programming, Linear Algebra, Mathematical Method 2, and Differential Equation 1.

Before I start cleaning up my notes, I will be giving a short recap of what I have learned and perhaps a review of the class, not including the lecturers, I do not want to be biased.

Disclaimer: I am allowed to voice out my opinion, pointing out the problems of at least the course structure, I do not want to go into how the lecturers are for now as I think if I get a lecturer who do not suck, then I am okay already. I do not want to rile up things for me for now.

The first one is Mathematical Method 2, I have learned about various tests for convergence for series and sequences, Taylor and Maclaurin series, partial derivatives, double and also triple integral. In general this course for me is easy, from a difficulty scale of 1 to 5, I would give it a 1. To be honest, I have seen some of these previously and the course does not really test on the ‘deep’ analysis part of these stuffs, what I meant by that is mostly we just sub formula and solve equations, there were almost no deriving or understanding of the formula used. It took me around 1 month to finish the syllabus and around a week to complete the tutorials and tests given. I feel like this course could be combined with another one of the courses that I have taken in the previous semester, which is Mathematical Methods 1, because my engineering friends’ Engineering Mathematics actually covers 80 of two of courses in one. So, since we are not really doing any sort of analysis, why not?

The second one is Differential equations. I have learned 4 simple methods to solve First Order Differential Equations. (Bernoulli, substitution, linear, separable) I also learned about how to solve second or higher order differential equations. Lastly was Laplace Transforms. Among the three, the first section I have learned before during Form 6; the second and last sectionI have learned it before using khanacademy when I was younger. So, the difficulty level for this course is 1. Same issue with the first course that I mentioned. I am going to take another course called Differential Equation 2 in the next semester, but I have finished studying all of it, including finished the tests given. It took me about 2-3 weeks to finish DE2. So, I feel like these two course can be combined to make things more interesting. One more weird thing that I found out is that in 2013 (around there), DE1 and DE2 are actually combined (around 80 percent) So, why are evolving, backwards?

The third one is Linear Algebra. I have learned the fundamentals of Linear Algebra (types of matrices and how to add, minus, find the inverse of matrices), solving system of equations, vector spaces, linear transformation, eigenvectors. As you can see, half of these stuff are actually taught in A-Level Maths / Further Maths, and I have taught people A-Levels previously. So, I am deeply questioning the standards that are set here. Nonetheless, another 1 in difficulty for me. It should be more challenging and more thorough, I noticed when I was learning vector space using khanacademy, there were quite a number of things that are important not mentioned in our books. So, why not make it more complete?

Lastly is computer programming, an introduction to C++. Initially I was going to give it a 1 again but after today’s test, I have to bump it up to a three due to the uncertainty factor of the tests and finals. The materials that are given in the book are just the tip of the iceberg. The test today was literally soul-shattering, although it was online, the codings to it were not talked about during classes or in the materials given. At least, that was my take about it. So, ya. If you want to have tests or finals about some topics that are not in the book, at least tell us before hand so that at least we can have a preparation. What I wanted to say the course was not well planned, the course learning outcome did not tally with the tests. At least that is how I feel about it.

All in all, the course are generally easy, almost too easy. I feel like these course can be combined with others, like DE 1 with DE 2, MM1 and MM2. And, please bump up the standards of the courses, we are here for a bachelor of degree in Mathematics, not a degree in engineering, we are here to learn how to do analysis on formula, not just using them plainly.

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