Binge Watching: An Addiction

I am addicted to watching Youtube. It has been more than 3 years since I never left the circle that Youtube created around me, I have been clocking in more than 3 hours of watch-time per day. Youtube videos are my escape points from pressure and reality itself, I never got the chance to realise […]

Read More

i am slacking off.

Waking up to my biological clock, it was around 6 a.m. I picked up my phone, dropped it beside me and fell back into slumber. I had this going on for a couple of weeks, waking up and sleeping back in for an hour or so more. On the bright side, I managed to be […]

Read More

Withdrawal

Mind racing, heart thumping, head pounding in the dead of the night. I promised myself not to take it, again. I just, I could not resist the temptation, my body was craving for it, the fulfilling delirious ecstasy, a dopamine rush. Although I was conscious about what I was doing, but I still did it […]

Read More

Parasitism, Addiction.

Waking up to the chimes of the alarm from your phone, I got up. Without a second thought, I slugged to the other end of the room, took up my phone, shut the alarm. I did not put down my phone, I was attached to it and back to my bed, scrolling through notifications and […]

Read More

re: addicted #18

why. why. my. my. i am back in this state the state where hope and dreams are pixelated. the instantaneous escapes, the immediate gratifications, the almost too real life that is present in front of your very eyes locked in the rectangular box in an unending cycle of refreshing, re-watching, renewing. i am tired. but […]

Read More

Apple Screen Time

Ever since the iOS 12, there was an unsettling thought that was implanted inside me. This is my third week using this feature, it really does make me feel uncomfortable that I am ever conscious about how much time I have spent on my phone doing unproductive things (scrolling through Twitter, watching Youtube) The screen […]

Read More

What Am I Doing?

Procrastination, Laziness, Taking everything for granted. I was still the same old me, Wanting to avoid As many problems As possible, Never wanting to face them, Man to man. I’d rather hide around, Go around, Circumvent… Wrong word, it should be Cowardice, Weak. I just can’t stop Distracting myself From my main objective. Do I […]

Read More

Breaking Free

Designed to impair,
To destroy yourselves,
By yourselves,
With your very own hands.

Read More

Just, STOP!!!

The revamping of my new self has been greatly disrupted by school, and mainly because of my feeble self with the lack of grit. My life is skewed away again, not on drugs, but with the addiction of wasting time. I wonder why do I favour the act of doing nothing by browsing superfluous videos […]

Read More