2018, Always.

This year had been a tough one, a roller-coaster ride, a roundelay, a nightmare, an awakening. I had not been productive at all, throughout the years of my life, this had been the most unproductive year of them all. Not only that, I also faced depression face to face. But, I always know that God […]

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Black Box #finale

Days, weeks, months passed. The void that I was living in was simply too good to be true, I could not even imagine what it was like outside, anymore. I just wanted to rest on my laurels, wait for things to fall into place for me, stop being me, anymore. Letting everything go, including my […]

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Black Box #two

Everything happened so quickly, my mind and heart could not keep up. It was pitch-black, my heart was slowly slipping into the infinite abyss of no return, my mental state was treading upon the thin line of in-sanity, my visions became murky. I was thrown into abject submission, oblivious about what my future could hold. […]

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Black Box #one

Prancing around in the land where possibilities were seamless, I could create things out of thin air with my pure imagination and hard work. Sometimes my creation would be unprecedented, out of my imaginations. The freedom, the excitement, the life that I was leading were all that made me feel alive, most importantly I was […]

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catharsis interjected #14

the voices in my head were shut away by the sheer darkness, deep silence, and stillness, rendering me incapable of thinking, imagining, loving. Hey, Are you still there? I do not feel like I am here anymore. My soul is seal tight against the atmosphere Shattering my insides Leaving me with nothing To breath To […]

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catharsis 10

head to head we face depression you are actually not as scary as i thought, the only thing that is intimidating is when i hide from you, as i came to you, you are nothing compared to me; you are a mere hindrance to the greatness that resides within me; you are just lonely, empty, […]

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Died.

Static, after work, no one seemed to care about me, my phone was left with no notifications, I had nobody to go to, I could only go home and rest for the next day’s routine. It had been the same these past few months. No, almost two years now. I thought I was accustomed to […]

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Can. It…

Heaving heavily after pushing open the front doors, knowing that only darkness was lingering around with me. Its presence was prominent. I was micro-sleeping on my drive back, beaten down by the everyday errands, my heart was wearied to get back up again. I’m worried. The little ol’ faith squeaked inside me. Tired, my eyelids were heavier […]

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You Are Not The Only One

Tears were rolling down my cheeks, reflected resplendently upon my blighted soul, transpiring the depths of my layered protective feelings. Encapsulated in those thick layers, there was I, buried deep down. Cocooned in myself, crying by myself, leaving tears where no one could possibly know. Those layers were just a facade, a cover-up, a sugar-coat […]

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