re: catharsis #15

chained locked up the security is tighter this time around “I ain’t falling for this again.” . . the chains came crumbling down the skies opened up stillness came rushing in as if i am resurrected. don’t be content. don’t lose guard. don’t forget. i stood in the midst of whiteness at least it wasContinue reading “re: catharsis #15”

catharsis interjected #14

the voices in my head were shut away by the sheer darkness, deep silence, and stillness, rendering me incapable of thinking, imagining, loving. Hey, Are you still there? I do not feel like I am here anymore. My soul is seal tight against the atmosphere Shattering my insides Leaving me with nothing To breath ToContinue reading “catharsis interjected #14”

interrupted catharsis #13

painsufferingdespairimpairmythoughtsare painconfusionnoselfcontrolidonotwantto thisismyheadmessedupasever icouldnotthinkstraightthisisthesign thatiamgoingbacktosquareone atthispointiamconfusedasever powerlessuselesssenseless i am defeated once again congrats… i am back to darkness again falling spiraling wandering into the darkest me. succumbed given up i am losing myself my grip the gossamer hope shimmering dimming at the horizon i am one foot away from my demise i can… iamsouselessmylifeismeaninglessitissodark icantseemyfuturewhatismypurposeagainContinue reading “interrupted catharsis #13”

re: sense one #11

Searing, my head was throbbing in pain as I got out from the trance. Sitting, staring blankly into the emptiness that lied within me, as far as I could see. I sat singularly in the middle of nothingness, rolling with everything that I got, I was still unable to control my body as if IContinue reading “re: sense one #11”

catharsis nine

bring it i am ready to face you depression reality i just realised this year or so i was spiraling uncontrollably into the abysmal feedback loop from hell depression . paralysed by the cruelty of depression i was not able to gain full control over myself i just let myself drift away into nothingness leavingContinue reading “catharsis nine”

catharsis 008

rolling rolling my mind my body drained sucked this is a loop i knew it in my bones and yet i still ignore it those signs conspicuous unperturbed my soul something is wrong with me something went wrong somewhere some so me. i need to stop searching for why but to look for the panaceaContinue reading “catharsis 008”

catharsis #5 ?

my brain, it hurts i really… i think i am going back to square one. nothing had changed i am still, me back to square one. my conscience, is once again buried deep in the depths of nothingness i could not tell anymore whether i am still, alive. silence, darkness, nothingness confusion what is happeningContinue reading “catharsis #5 ?”

catharsis #4

time and time time is ticking rushing, pulsating, blurry. the rush is prominent in my veins how long can it last? a subjective question the previous one lasted for a year or so hopefully this will last for a lifetime i do not want to spiral into a cycle of nothingness again. catharsis is aContinue reading “catharsis #4”

Catharsis… #3

hi… a week before you were adamant for a change you were hungry you were desperate where did all of those go? you were cleansed by your tears you were changed by you heart what have you become? i… i don… i don’t know anymore i doubted stupid me i thought, it was just aContinue reading “Catharsis… #3”