Decisions. Decisions.

This is what have been going on inside my head for the past few months. Quite messy and rather screwed up. But, it is a matter of getting a slap from my conscience and waking up to clear my head. It is not a good piece to read, but please do not let this writing affect you negatively.

Patience (Restrung)

. . . Wait . . . Wait . . . nothing. … nothing has happened yet. … maybe it is just too early. i mean. what can i expect from doing the same thing for a year or so. my hands are full. i cannot possibly do more than this. . . Falling, Failing,Continue reading “Patience (Restrung)”

Patience

. . . Wait . . . Wait . . . nothing. nothing happened yet. maybe it is too early. i mean. what can i expect from doing the same thing for a year or so. my hands are full. i cannot possibly do more than this. patiently. wait… wait… wait… no, nothing yet. wait.Continue reading “Patience”

Becoming A Deviant

Routine, as usual- going to school, going to work, stuck in jams, reading the same material, waiting for nothing. I pulled myself out of bed, scrolling through Twitter, watching some Youtube for an hour or so, trapped in the social media feedback loop from hell without having any conscience to break-free whatsoever. Upon reaching school,Continue reading “Becoming A Deviant”

Delaying the Scam

“Hello? Is this Mr. John?” the voice has a very strong Indonesian dialect, slightly mutated into a robotic voice right after, “I am calling from the HSBC bank.” scammer, this is going to be entertaining. “Yes.” I intercepted his introduction, “How can I help you?” Let him speak first. Then we could have some fun, I thought, hisContinue reading “Delaying the Scam”