Catharsis #1

prying open the deepest ends of my heart, there was nothing more to be expected, everything was emptied out of me a year or so ago, when things started to get awry. i have been in this constant state of misery, pain, fear, cowardice, foolishness. i am mired in the cesspool from hell, i needContinue reading “Catharsis #1”

Re-Birth #Finale

“Imagine yourself as a teeny tiny baby, cuddling inside your mother’s womb and what it felt like. Warm. Tight because her stomach is all over you.” Ponder’s voice was tinged with a courteous heart, the heart of a nurse ready to deliver a new-born baby. It was getting sultry in here, I let my handContinue reading “Re-Birth #Finale”

Re-Birth #Exodus

“Wake up, Candace.” she shook me. There were two towering figures standing in front of me, one in suit and tie, a nonentity, one was Candace, in a flowery blouse. “Your name is now Candace Elizabeth Newmaker.” what the fuck? I attempted to speak, no words came out from my mouth, something is wrong with the food yesterday.Continue reading “Re-Birth #Exodus”

Re-Birth #Genesis

I was not loved, tossed here and there by my foster parents, it was all temporal, nothing was true. They said they loved me, but they returned me back to the social services where it was better off being lied about being loved. I rather be alone than to suffer the pain of realising counterfeitContinue reading “Re-Birth #Genesis”

Moriah Moments #Finale

Three years later, here I was giving this very speech in this very restaurant. “This is my testimony of becoming a pastor.” My father stood up abruptly, the stern Taoist being the different one among the other of my relatives, and my friends. “I want to give my life to God.” every pair of eyes inContinue reading “Moriah Moments #Finale”

Moriah Moments #7

I became a devout christian, I believed in all of His words, His commands, His everything. Even before being a christian, I had a job at one of the multi-national companies, holding the mantle of being the executive manager in the accounting department, having a faithful boyfriend who was an atheist, and a big fatContinue reading “Moriah Moments #7”

Moriah Moments #6

So Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Issac his son; and he took the fire in his hand, and a knife, and the two of them went together. But Issac spoke to Abraham his father and said,  “My father!” I spoke during the closing worship to God. “Anyone who wantsContinue reading “Moriah Moments #6”

Moriah Moments #5

…So Abraham rose early in the morning and saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and Issac his son; and he split the wood for the burnt offering, and arose and went to the place which the God had told him. Then on the third day Abraham lifted his eyesContinue reading “Moriah Moments #5”

Moriah Moments #4

A week past, I was constantly bombarded by the temptation to pick up the bible and read it. I did not touch that thing, I flung it out of the window in the middle of the week when I was done fighting with the very desire to flip, to open the windows to the truthContinue reading “Moriah Moments #4”