Terrible. Terrible.

Physics – A, Maths – B+, Chemistry – B+, General Studies – C+. CGPA- 3.25 which was under satisfactory. It was very, very low compared to my expectations. However, those expectations were based on my imaginations where the rule of sowing what you reap does not exist. Sad to say, we live in a worldContinue reading “Terrible. Terrible.”

Am I Ready?

No. And never, Will be. Life has deadlines, Even when it is set, We will never be ready For what is to come. Procrastination, Kills, Sucked. Asked, “Are you ready?” No. No matter how much you prepared, You will never meet The definition of being ready. Either you have transcended The ready mark In yourContinue reading “Am I Ready?”

Last Minute

Three days till my first paper, and I feel, I am fucked. Somehow, I managed to procrastinate until these last few days, and study, and sleep for most of the times. The agony, irony, are the least that I could feel, because it is futile to do anything now, it is just as if usingContinue reading “Last Minute”

A Brewing Storm

Months turned into weeks, Weeks turned into days, like, so fast, that you have no time at all, to process all of these. I was standing, in front of the impending storm, A fucking shitstorm, I was wearied, Scared, shitless. Prepping, Time was never on my side, Distracted, By the relentless struggle Of self-control, TheContinue reading “A Brewing Storm”

Don’t Create Problems.

Another day, another period that I hated the most in school, I did not hate the period due to its syllabus, but due to the teacher. If a teacher made you hate some subject because of him, I felt so sorry and vexed for myself and him, because I attended school for the sole reasonContinue reading “Don’t Create Problems.”

Boon And Bane

I have been teaching for a few years, picked this skill up in order to sharpen my patience, and my choice of words when coming to conveying an information. Nothing had stopped me from teaching, even now, there are bestial exams lining up in front of me, waiting to slaughter me clean in one swoop.Continue reading “Boon And Bane”

I Need to, I Have to, I Must.

Anxiety, nervousness, fear. All of them attacking me at once. I am falling, My mind is clogged. Sleep is deprived. Too much, too many, Effort is not there, At all. Information, knowledge, Messed up. Fragmented lots, Unknown cavities, Conning against me, Killing me slowly, Efficaciously, Deadly. This STPM thing is slowly draining my life forceContinue reading “I Need to, I Have to, I Must.”

Talking to Myself

Pain, once more. Less than 90 days, 88 days to be exact, counting down to the first term of STPM, I did nothing, less than expected. Why did I do so? Because I procrastinate, because I was asshole in time management, because I was obstinate to not join any tuition, because of me, and myself,Continue reading “Talking to Myself”