Relapse, withdrawal, relapse, withdrawal, relapse, withdrawal. This time it is not that different, but totally different from the previous times that I fall into this feedback loop from hell. I went back into the addiction cycle that I gotten rid of years ago, this time was more hellish compared to the previous time. Imagine yourself,Continue reading “the times when i lost control”
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somewhere over the moon
The moon was overhung behind the clouds that poured incessantly, creating a relaxing ambience accompanied with a tinge of peace that was worth relishing. I climbed up from my insomnia and grabbed my phone. As the glaring 4.00 a.m. flashed into my retinas, I pulled myself back into bed and hoped for sleep in theseContinue reading “somewhere over the moon”
i am slacking off.
Waking up to my biological clock, it was around 6 a.m. I picked up my phone, dropped it beside me and fell back into slumber. I had this going on for a couple of weeks, waking up and sleeping back in for an hour or so more. On the bright side, I managed to beContinue reading “i am slacking off.”
Solitary Loop (Finale)
The alarms blared in the control room, one of the lab men shouted, “This American is trying to overload our systems.” A coffee drop was formed from the last filtration process. The chief took a sip from the steamy cup and replied, “Ignore it.” “But chief, our systems will crash permanently if he cont…” “FuckContinue reading “Solitary Loop (Finale)”
Solitary Loop (Part 4)
I was back in the void of nothingness again. This time welcomed with a cry of defeat. I sat there, back at my initial spot, crying myself out, balling my eyes to the void beneath me. The sadness was impending, a premonition, almost. I could not imagine what my head would be like after this.Continue reading “Solitary Loop (Part 4)”
Solitary Loop (Part 3)
Tap. Tap. Tap. “It is only ten seconds sir.” one of the lab men reported. “And so?” the chief commander seemed not bothered as he heaved a deep one from his cigarette. “His train of thoughts is back to normal.” The chief gently flicked off the ashes onto an aluminium tray, “Nothing special?” “No information fromContinue reading “Solitary Loop (Part 3)”
Solitary Loop (Part 2)
I woke up in a pitch black place, cloaked in a patient robe, shone by a spotlight, boundless. I got up almost immediately from my spot. My body was perfectly alright. An image of me sprang in front of me like a giant screen glaring down on my puny existence. The image was static. NothingContinue reading “Solitary Loop (Part 2)”
Solitary Loop (Part 1)
Static, pulsating with my mere heartbeat. It was surreal that I was still alive after a bullet had driven into my vitals. I pried my eyes open, welcomed by the glaring florescence of a typical interrogation room used by the higher-ups. My head was searing with pain and I felt no presence around me, partContinue reading “Solitary Loop (Part 1)”
A Loss In Time, Taken For Granted
Three bows, the third one was the longest bow that I gave to anyone ever. I was holding back my tears, gasping for air as to how much my bow would mean for my calligraphy teacher- 王老师. He had passed away on the Father’s day Sunday morning, and I was instantly crushed into pieces. IContinue reading “A Loss In Time, Taken For Granted”
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